I've never understood it, will I ever? I have never understood why I ended up with this chair or this life. I am not complaining but, I am at an age where I finding myself wishing it was different. I put on a smile and I keep going because I don't have a choice, this is the hand I was dealt. That d0es not mean that I do not feel angry at times.
Those damn curbs, stairs and small ass bathroom stalls get to me. I don't have the balance to be without anti-tippers so I can do curbs. We tried and I had another tip and smash head episode. I don't get the PT I need so I can learn to do these things. Worst of all I roll through a store and get that lingering stare. Why? What did I do to derserve that? I actually had to leave a line-up the other day because some 16 year old girl just thought seeing someone sitting in a chair was AMAZING. I feel like turning around and saying "I'll give you something to F**@$ing stare about."
I know if it were not for that chair, I would not be who I am nor would I know a lot of the amazing people in my life that have inspired me, helped me, encouraged me and loved me. I long for the feeling to stand and hug those people or to be able to look at someone in the eyes when I'm thanking them for what they've done for me without them having to kneel down to my level.
Sorry, I needed to vent and I hope you understand. Thank you for sticking by me for my friends who read this, it means the world to me.
On a side note, I would like to ask for you to check out Ryan Clausings Caringbirdge. He was injured a few months ago in a motorcycle accident, left paralyzed from the nipple line down. It's his little one's birthday today and he had to go to the hospital halfway through for some medical issues. Please keep your fingers crossed he can be home for his anniversary tomorrow and for his little guys birthday Thursday!
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/ryanclausing
"He's not jaded or bitter, he's gonna leave the givin' up for the quitters."
J
Monday, June 7, 2010
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Why Did I Start This Blog?
Hey there!
As I mentioned before I am going to get my new wheels put on next week, I'm pretty excited.
The real reason I decided to blog tonight though is because I wanted to talk a little bit more about why I started this blog. I wanted to help others in the same situation. I know how hard it is sometimes, how frustrating the simpelest things can be. I'm not going to lie, there are times when I wish I could walk and I get angry that I can't walk. I get angry that I try SO hard and yet I still sturggle. The truth is though, I am one very lucky person; I can feed myself, talk, learn and so many other things. I want to mentor people; help them in any way I can and so, what I am saying is if you have any questions or topics you would like me to cover on being in a wheelchair or anything else for that matter, please comment and let me know because as I said, that is my objective with this blog; educate people about being in a chair and help those who are in way possible.
" He's not jaded or bitter, he's gonna leave the givin' up for the quitters."
J
As I mentioned before I am going to get my new wheels put on next week, I'm pretty excited.
The real reason I decided to blog tonight though is because I wanted to talk a little bit more about why I started this blog. I wanted to help others in the same situation. I know how hard it is sometimes, how frustrating the simpelest things can be. I'm not going to lie, there are times when I wish I could walk and I get angry that I can't walk. I get angry that I try SO hard and yet I still sturggle. The truth is though, I am one very lucky person; I can feed myself, talk, learn and so many other things. I want to mentor people; help them in any way I can and so, what I am saying is if you have any questions or topics you would like me to cover on being in a wheelchair or anything else for that matter, please comment and let me know because as I said, that is my objective with this blog; educate people about being in a chair and help those who are in way possible.
" He's not jaded or bitter, he's gonna leave the givin' up for the quitters."
J
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Long time, no blog!
I just wanted to say that yes, I am still alive. I haven't had time to blog due to homework, therapy and all that fun stuff. I am going to have my wheels put on next week so, I'll be out of town and away from school. Hopefully I'll have a chance to do a real post then.
"He's not jaded or bitter, he's gonna leave the givin' up for the quitters."
J
"He's not jaded or bitter, he's gonna leave the givin' up for the quitters."
J
Thursday, April 8, 2010
New Wheels!
Hey!
I'm in a super upbeat mood and feel the need to blog! This could be he consequences of all the coffee and excitement over the last few days.
So, I am getting new wheels for my chair, those old mags have been coming offset over and over the last few months. They are the spoke ones. They are lighter (made for titanium instead of aluminum) so they will be easier on my shoulder. They will be adding new casters (little wheels in the front) They are going to be purple. The wheels will have silver pushrims and black spokes. They will add some cumber (tilt) to the wheels and put them closer to the front/middle of my chair so not so much energy gets lost through the frame when I am wheeling. These were reccomended to me by a rehab/ seating consultant and by one of my PT'S so if it is going to help my shoulder; we're all for it. Power chairs, I tried one; just isn't me.
This brings me to a story. For you wheelchair users out there, you know the real low-backed wheelchairs like Quickie Ti's? I wanted to try one of thos while we were looking for wheels so I transferred to one. Well, I didn't realize how quick those spoked wheels carry you and I went to lean back because my chair has a high seat and anti-tippers so I can get away with it. Well, this chair had no anti-tippers and BAM I landed on ceramic floor! I have NEVER seen so many people come flying out of their offices so fast. I'm pretty sure they were worried were going to sue them, I should've asked for a deal on the wheels :). My neck and back took the brunt of the fal, I've learned from numerous falls that the best thing to do is lean forward as I fall so my head stays upright and never hits the floor. Well, this time it saved me, I'd have cut my head open on the corner of some stairs if I hadn't done that. I think in end,, my pride hurt more than my back and neck.
For anyone interested:
Frog Leg Casters- http://www.southwestmedical.com/products/4-x-1-1-2in-Frog-Legs-Plastic-3-Spoke-Caster-Wheel-19450.html (Mine Will be Purple because I am just THAT cool :)
Spoke Wheels: http://www.spinlife.com/Spinergy-SPOX-SL-Wheels-Wheel/spec.cfm?productID=1973 (not exactly these ones)
"He's not jaded or bitter, he's gonna leave the givin' up for the quitters."
J
I'm in a super upbeat mood and feel the need to blog! This could be he consequences of all the coffee and excitement over the last few days.
So, I am getting new wheels for my chair, those old mags have been coming offset over and over the last few months. They are the spoke ones. They are lighter (made for titanium instead of aluminum) so they will be easier on my shoulder. They will be adding new casters (little wheels in the front) They are going to be purple. The wheels will have silver pushrims and black spokes. They will add some cumber (tilt) to the wheels and put them closer to the front/middle of my chair so not so much energy gets lost through the frame when I am wheeling. These were reccomended to me by a rehab/ seating consultant and by one of my PT'S so if it is going to help my shoulder; we're all for it. Power chairs, I tried one; just isn't me.
This brings me to a story. For you wheelchair users out there, you know the real low-backed wheelchairs like Quickie Ti's? I wanted to try one of thos while we were looking for wheels so I transferred to one. Well, I didn't realize how quick those spoked wheels carry you and I went to lean back because my chair has a high seat and anti-tippers so I can get away with it. Well, this chair had no anti-tippers and BAM I landed on ceramic floor! I have NEVER seen so many people come flying out of their offices so fast. I'm pretty sure they were worried were going to sue them, I should've asked for a deal on the wheels :). My neck and back took the brunt of the fal, I've learned from numerous falls that the best thing to do is lean forward as I fall so my head stays upright and never hits the floor. Well, this time it saved me, I'd have cut my head open on the corner of some stairs if I hadn't done that. I think in end,, my pride hurt more than my back and neck.
For anyone interested:
Frog Leg Casters- http://www.southwestmedical.com/products/4-x-1-1-2in-Frog-Legs-Plastic-3-Spoke-Caster-Wheel-19450.html (Mine Will be Purple because I am just THAT cool :)
Spoke Wheels: http://www.spinlife.com/Spinergy-SPOX-SL-Wheels-Wheel/spec.cfm?productID=1973 (not exactly these ones)
"He's not jaded or bitter, he's gonna leave the givin' up for the quitters."
J
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Wheelchair Problems Anyone?
Hey Everyone!
Tonight I went shopping with mom, sister, her friend, and my nephew. All day I had a funny feeling something was wrong with my chair. A few months back, one of the wheels became offset, I don't know how or why... Today, the same thing.
It has to get fixed before I go out of town on Monday so, tomorrow I will take it in to be fixed which means, wait for it...... NO SCHOOL FOR ME!! I can't realy go to school with no wheelchair....
You might have expected me to be pissed off that my chair is messed up but, I've been in such a negative mood the last while that I'm just tired of it so, I'm finding the positive in this situation.
What positive thing happened to YOU today?
"He's not jaded or bitter, he's gonna leave the givin' up for the quitters."
J
Tonight I went shopping with mom, sister, her friend, and my nephew. All day I had a funny feeling something was wrong with my chair. A few months back, one of the wheels became offset, I don't know how or why... Today, the same thing.
It has to get fixed before I go out of town on Monday so, tomorrow I will take it in to be fixed which means, wait for it...... NO SCHOOL FOR ME!! I can't realy go to school with no wheelchair....
You might have expected me to be pissed off that my chair is messed up but, I've been in such a negative mood the last while that I'm just tired of it so, I'm finding the positive in this situation.
What positive thing happened to YOU today?
"He's not jaded or bitter, he's gonna leave the givin' up for the quitters."
J
Monday, March 29, 2010
Shoulders and Wheelchairs.
Hey!
For those of you who are in a wheelchair and read this blog, I'm sure you can relate when I say wheelchairs cause some pain issues with the shoulder.. I have been trying to recuperate for about a year now, going to PT, changing how I do things and all that. I've progressed bit by bit but, I'm still having some serious pain issues. Today, I finally went for an ultrasound to check for a tear. To be honest, I was hoping for there to be one so I could have surgery and be done with it. NOPE! The radiologist reviewed it right then and there and told us I just had severe inflammation. So, same old stuff. PT and Cortisone. Sorry to come and rant.
I might be frustrated at this point and sick of being in pain but,
"He's not jaded or bitter, he's gonna' leave the givin' up for the quitters"
J
For those of you who are in a wheelchair and read this blog, I'm sure you can relate when I say wheelchairs cause some pain issues with the shoulder.. I have been trying to recuperate for about a year now, going to PT, changing how I do things and all that. I've progressed bit by bit but, I'm still having some serious pain issues. Today, I finally went for an ultrasound to check for a tear. To be honest, I was hoping for there to be one so I could have surgery and be done with it. NOPE! The radiologist reviewed it right then and there and told us I just had severe inflammation. So, same old stuff. PT and Cortisone. Sorry to come and rant.
I might be frustrated at this point and sick of being in pain but,
"He's not jaded or bitter, he's gonna' leave the givin' up for the quitters"
J
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Shocking and Sick and On a Lighter Note
I wanted to post two links tonight. The first one makes me sick. For those of you who are following from the Apparelyzed Forum you may have already heard about this. Ths guy got beaten with a metal bar from his own wheelchair! How low can you go? http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2010/03/11/wheelchair-bound-tourist_n_493653.html
One of the youth has been caught, the other they are looking for. 12 and 15 years old *shakes head*. The link shows the attack, just to warn anyone who's interested on checkin' out the link.
On a lighter note there is a man named Brandon Sulser, he was paralyzed a while back and has been featured in a vid of Collin Raye's. It's called "Quitters" and I think that everyone should hear it :). http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yEFHbGWv8u8
"He's not jaded or bitter, he's gonna leave the givin' up for the quitters."
J
One of the youth has been caught, the other they are looking for. 12 and 15 years old *shakes head*. The link shows the attack, just to warn anyone who's interested on checkin' out the link.
On a lighter note there is a man named Brandon Sulser, he was paralyzed a while back and has been featured in a vid of Collin Raye's. It's called "Quitters" and I think that everyone should hear it :). http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yEFHbGWv8u8
"He's not jaded or bitter, he's gonna leave the givin' up for the quitters."
J
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