Hey all,
I have decided to close down this blog.... When I started back to OT I had lots to write about and share. i don't have the time anymore to keep this going and to be honest, I need to let this blog go as part of letting the time I spent in therapy go. I will be starting with a new therapist very soon and because of that I feel the need to start entirely fresh. There may come a day when I decide to blog again, but for now all I can say is thank you for everything and please know that I appreciate every single one of you who took the time to comment, read, pray, whatever. Thank you.
"He's not jaded or bitter, he's gonna leave the givin' up for the quitters."
J
Friday, September 23, 2011
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I'm not even sure what to title this post. I don't know how to put into words what I feel right now. Usually when I get into this funk, I get out. I can't seem to. I have moments of happiness and moments that are anxiety free but they are extremely short lived.
I'm still struggling in Math because they still want me to draw graphs. I finally decided today I am handing in my math binder with a few incomplete assignments. I don't know if I'll finish the exam. I got a 53% on my Biology exam, thankfully I get to pick one exam mark to drop at the end of the year so, that might be it. I have talked to quiet a few people about this graphing situation (for both now and university). The online learning person I emailed told me there should be no problem with me using my graphing software next year (and she'll be my Math teacher, apparently) I also spoke to some people at several universities who assured me the graphing issues could be worked around. Good. But then, I explained to one of them I wanted to go into Occupational Therapy. She told me I should look very carefully at the Essential Skills document. I did and it is required that not only do you have the physical abilities (walking, bending, ect) but, you also have to have proper spatial abilities. Problem. I do not possess very good spatial acuity/abilities as I've mentioned before. They have a reasonable accommodation policies but, I'm not sure what exactly that entails. I think it's also bringing forward the fact that it might be hard for me to find a job where my abilities could be matched with the duties of the position. I know that being an OT is my dream job and it has been for a very long time. I really hope it works out, it's got me kind of distracted.
Then there is this whole reno thing. The tile guy screwed up big time. He got grout EVERYWHERE and I mean everywhere. We had to pull out all the tile he put in. So now, I've been without my bath lift for 5 weeks and am having to be lifted in and out of the tub which isn't good for my shoulder or mom's back. Still no ramp/tie downs for van yet. They were approved by insurance and the DME ordered them, but they're not here yet so, dad called DME. DME said he would call back after he contacted the manufacture. No phone call.
Oh and my shoulder. UGH! I went to see the Physiatrist yesterday and he said he is almost positive I have a tear in my superspinitis (rotator cuff). Awesome. He tried to look at my MRI yesterday but, the server they are on was down. He says he doesn't know if there's much they can do due to my lifestyle. He said as a last resort they can give me some special injections. What they do is take blood from your shoulder, remove the platelets, and inject them back into your shoulder. This does wonders for healing, but he's not sure why It is apparently very expensive and is not covered by insurance. At this point, though, mom and dad will do whatever they have to do to make my shoulder better for the sake of my health emotionally and physically.
We also decided to go forward with therapeutic riding so I'm pretty excited about that . I think my OT says it best; "It beats sitting on the floor for an hour doing stupid stretches." I think that's the first time I've heard one of my therapists refer to my stretches as "stupid." :). The doctor also said I will probably need some Physical Therapy. Gross :).
On the subject of therapy, they did go on strike. Not everyone, though. However, there are more walking out everyday. As of this morning, I still have OT but, that could change.
You can maybe see now why I feel like I just can't take anymore I'm not going to lie; right at this very moment my faith is running low. Please pray for things to calm down and get better. Please pray that I can still have therapy this week and that it is a positive session. Also, please pray this strike does not have to last long and can have absolutely minimal effect on patients.
Thank you for your thoughts prayers and PLEASE don't be afraid to ask me to return the favor whenever you need.
Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency. ~Natalie Goldberg, Wild Mind
J
I'm still struggling in Math because they still want me to draw graphs. I finally decided today I am handing in my math binder with a few incomplete assignments. I don't know if I'll finish the exam. I got a 53% on my Biology exam, thankfully I get to pick one exam mark to drop at the end of the year so, that might be it. I have talked to quiet a few people about this graphing situation (for both now and university). The online learning person I emailed told me there should be no problem with me using my graphing software next year (and she'll be my Math teacher, apparently) I also spoke to some people at several universities who assured me the graphing issues could be worked around. Good. But then, I explained to one of them I wanted to go into Occupational Therapy. She told me I should look very carefully at the Essential Skills document. I did and it is required that not only do you have the physical abilities (walking, bending, ect) but, you also have to have proper spatial abilities. Problem. I do not possess very good spatial acuity/abilities as I've mentioned before. They have a reasonable accommodation policies but, I'm not sure what exactly that entails. I think it's also bringing forward the fact that it might be hard for me to find a job where my abilities could be matched with the duties of the position. I know that being an OT is my dream job and it has been for a very long time. I really hope it works out, it's got me kind of distracted.
Then there is this whole reno thing. The tile guy screwed up big time. He got grout EVERYWHERE and I mean everywhere. We had to pull out all the tile he put in. So now, I've been without my bath lift for 5 weeks and am having to be lifted in and out of the tub which isn't good for my shoulder or mom's back. Still no ramp/tie downs for van yet. They were approved by insurance and the DME ordered them, but they're not here yet so, dad called DME. DME said he would call back after he contacted the manufacture. No phone call.
Oh and my shoulder. UGH! I went to see the Physiatrist yesterday and he said he is almost positive I have a tear in my superspinitis (rotator cuff). Awesome. He tried to look at my MRI yesterday but, the server they are on was down. He says he doesn't know if there's much they can do due to my lifestyle. He said as a last resort they can give me some special injections. What they do is take blood from your shoulder, remove the platelets, and inject them back into your shoulder. This does wonders for healing, but he's not sure why It is apparently very expensive and is not covered by insurance. At this point, though, mom and dad will do whatever they have to do to make my shoulder better for the sake of my health emotionally and physically.
We also decided to go forward with therapeutic riding so I'm pretty excited about that . I think my OT says it best; "It beats sitting on the floor for an hour doing stupid stretches." I think that's the first time I've heard one of my therapists refer to my stretches as "stupid." :). The doctor also said I will probably need some Physical Therapy. Gross :).
On the subject of therapy, they did go on strike. Not everyone, though. However, there are more walking out everyday. As of this morning, I still have OT but, that could change.
You can maybe see now why I feel like I just can't take anymore I'm not going to lie; right at this very moment my faith is running low. Please pray for things to calm down and get better. Please pray that I can still have therapy this week and that it is a positive session. Also, please pray this strike does not have to last long and can have absolutely minimal effect on patients.
Thank you for your thoughts prayers and PLEASE don't be afraid to ask me to return the favor whenever you need.
Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency. ~Natalie Goldberg, Wild Mind
J
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Better Now.
Hey all,
Things are still crazy busy and I am TIRED! Math is going very well and my teacher seens to be very adaptable as far as my my inability to write/draw. We have a PPP meeting with the new resource teacher and maybe my teachers on Friday morning.
I pulled a muscle in my shoulder, but, that's just what happenes when you have a prior injury; injuries happen easier. I have to make an appointment with my PT anyways, I haven't seen him in almost 2 months due to working and transportation issues.
I went to see my doctor and he told me that I did have an infection when I ended up in the ER and that cough I have is a post-infection cough so, I am on an inhaler and if I don't feel better by the end of the week, I have to go back to the doctor. He said it could have been a UTI as there were some white blood cellls in the sample they took, but, the antibiotics I was on should have taken care of that. He thinks my heartrate was due to the fever and stress. So, I've gone back to happily drinking my coffee without fear :).
Nap time!
Jesus replied, "What is impossible with men is possible with God." Luke 18:27
Things are still crazy busy and I am TIRED! Math is going very well and my teacher seens to be very adaptable as far as my my inability to write/draw. We have a PPP meeting with the new resource teacher and maybe my teachers on Friday morning.
I pulled a muscle in my shoulder, but, that's just what happenes when you have a prior injury; injuries happen easier. I have to make an appointment with my PT anyways, I haven't seen him in almost 2 months due to working and transportation issues.
I went to see my doctor and he told me that I did have an infection when I ended up in the ER and that cough I have is a post-infection cough so, I am on an inhaler and if I don't feel better by the end of the week, I have to go back to the doctor. He said it could have been a UTI as there were some white blood cellls in the sample they took, but, the antibiotics I was on should have taken care of that. He thinks my heartrate was due to the fever and stress. So, I've gone back to happily drinking my coffee without fear :).
Nap time!
Jesus replied, "What is impossible with men is possible with God." Luke 18:27
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